Day 44
It grows moment by moment, it does not diminish. Often in our relationships love seems to diminish. At least the intensity goes down a little, in all relationships when a child is very small, it cannot move away from it’s mother even for a few minutes, a few hours. Then it starts becoming independent.
Then once in a while the child sends Mother's Day cards. You are more attached to your children than to your own parents. Your whole attention, that was So much with your parents when you were a child, gets diverted to your spouse after you get married.
Then after you have children, that same attention you had for spouse gets diverted to your children. There is a shifting in all different types of love. But Divine love grows all the time, moment by moment. Every moment it grows, it increases, never decreases.
There is no gap. It cannot be destroyed by anybody, it cannot be taken away from you and it is very delicate. To experience it you need to be very quiet. Love itself is so delicate. That is why when you feel love, you feel so delicate, so vulnerable. And that is how you can get hurt. Hurt is part of love. When you love somebody, you feel so delicate, so vulnerable.
And a small simple gesture from them hurts you. When one whom you love does not smile at you, finished, your mood is off. Small gestures, insignificant things can hurt you because love is so delicate and finer than the finest. It is said that to know God, you need to be in love. Why should you be in love in order to know God?
Because love makes you very fine, refined, so delicate. In that delicate state of consciousness alone can you be united with this whole Universe. Then you can say, “Me and my father are one.” Unless you are in that state of love, you cannot proclaim, “Me and my father are one,” you cannot say “Aham Brahmasmi” - I am that. When can you Say it?
When your consciousness becomes so refined. From the molecular state to the atomic level to the sub-atomic level then you can say there is one field. On the gross level you cannot say ‘ one field’. Only on the subtle level you can recognize there is one field, the oneness in creation.
It is experiential, not an intellectual analysis. It is a synthesis of the finest order. It is not the cloud which is there one day and which breaks another day, with some conditions, with some feelings. People often fall in love and then say they got disillusioned. That ts really no disillusionment, it is re-illusionment.
If you break away from love and fall into a state of apathy or negativity or dullness, it is not disillusionment. Disillusionment is when you completely immerse yourself in love and you recognize there is only one love in this universe. Then you are disillusion. Real disillusionment is when you realize the sun belongs to you, when you realise this whole planet is your own and you own the air you breathe.
That is disillusionment. Otherwise you are an illusion. Small identity is what is your illusion. Me, mine, my thing. This experiential Divine love brings you the reality. But it is so strange that when people fall out of love, that is when they say, “I got disillusioned. "When they become indifferent, they say they are disillusioned. That is small mindedness, small love. Then they have not had a taste of what Divine love is.
