Day 11
Knowing which one is intoxicated. When you go through all this paraphernalia of negative emotions, that is when you just want to forget everything. Then people just want to drink and intoxicate themselves.
But love is the best intoxicant available. Divine love is such an intoxication. Knowing which you become drunk, you get intoxicated, spaced out. What else will any of this excitement do to you? It brings you to a state of amazement, doesn't it? “Ahh, wow”.
This feeling arises in you. Love takes you to that state. Knowing which you become so stunned, smitten, completely awestruck. You become so still, you repose in yourself. You are in such deep rest, deep peace. You are rejoicing yourself and reposing in the Self.
All these are the glories of love. “How can I have it now? I just want to have that, nothing more, finished with everything else-no job, no work. I will leave everything, I want just that. How can I have it?”
This desire to have such an ultimate love, which has been painted into such a glorious picture, this feverishness if it arises in you, then Narada is there waiting with a stick, right in front of you.
It is not an object of desire, stop wanting it. You know, when you want to sit for meditation, the more you want that thoughts should not come, the more they come. The mind works on a completely different set of laws. Sometimes people say, “I want nothing, I just want liberation.”
This desire for liberation or desire for the ultimate sometimes makes them go around in circles. When it comes to knowledge, you must have a little desire for liberation to be free. But when it comes to Divine love, he says it is not an object of desire.
Love is not an object of desire. Love is what you are. So settle down, calm down, quiet down. It is like you are wanting to rest, but you keep running from room to room, “Oh, I want to sleep. I want to sleep.” All that you want is to relax, but you are running. How can you relax if you are running?
If you can relax here, you can relax there also. If you can relax in your living room, you can relax in your bedroom. If you cannot relax in your bedroom, running around the house cannot bring you relaxation. Whether it is on the street or under a tree in the park or home or on the bus, anywhere, wherever you are, you can relax. Isn’t that so?
When you want to swim in the lake, you can jump from any side of the lake. Even if you take a boat and jump from the middle of the lake, it is the same as jumping from the shore. You cannot learn swimming unless you are in the water. You cannot say you will first learn swimming and then get into the water.
“I don't want to wet my feet, my socks will get wet, but I want to swim.” This is not possible. It is not an object of desire, you cannot make it into an object of desire. It is of the nature of restraint, of relaxation, of retiring.
