Morning when I woke up I could not move my left hand and left foot
The left side was paralyzed (I knew it only later). Till the previous night I was normal, did all the work and also finished 90 percent of the packing to go to Ashram to attend the AMP for teachers from 1st May. But now all of a sudden I am unable to move. Quickly my husband and daughter took me to the nearby hospital and immediately medical help was given, starting from MRI scan which showed a clot in my brain and doctors had to decide on the line of treatment.
Waking up by 6 and finding myself in the ICU in an hour - I could not comprehend anything nor accept the situation and was resisting everything that was being done by the nurse staff. Suddenly after a few minutes of resistance it dawned on me that being an art of living teacher what is the use of giving the knowledge points to others if I am not able to follow it. Then I prayed to Guruji to give me the inner strength to accept and go through the situation.
After the acceptance I didn't feel the pain of inserting so many tubes and administering the intravenous injections. I closed my eyes and was chanting "om namah shivaya" and could feel Guruji's presence near me.
I told Gurudev if that was the last day for me, then it's okay - atleast I will die chanting om namah shivaya.
Otherwise if I recover, I should be totally normal. I didn't want to be depended on anyone, so don't put me on a wheel chair. If I can serve you for a few more years, then you make me normal, otherwise let today be my last on this planet. Whatever you think is best for me, I am sure you will give that. With so many thoughts running in my mind and doctors and nurses doing their job, I don't know how time passed.
By 3 pm in the main doctor came to examine me. He also asked me to say a tongue twister (earlier in the morning because of the facial pull on the left side, I didn't speak normally) which I could repeat so easily. The doctor declared me normal and gave me a full glass of water to drink (in the morning I could not even swallow a drop of water). The doctor said I could then drink a cup of coffee or tea and eat whatever I like. Then he asked the nurses to remove all the tubes from my body.
After the doctor left all the other junior doctors were around my bed and they were telling me "You are very lucky, within 12 hours in the ICU you have completely recovered, its a miracle". Then it dawned on me that it was a miracle and I thanked Guruji for saving me in such a wonderful manner. The best part was that even the senior doctor was wondering (my husband told me later) why it occurred to me as all my other parameters (like BP, sugar, cholesterol) were all normal. It really remains a wonder and a miracle.
All that I pray is that I should be able to do a lot of seva to our Master till the end of this life. Thank you so much for saving me Gurudev. Love you. Jai Guru Dev.
- Padmini Sekar, Chennai
